Hearts & Co.

Quote Iris Simpkins:

Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting."
What an extraordinary thought.

Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that,
but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had.

I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should.
I am constantly amazed by its sheer power
to alter and define our lives.

It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind".
Now that is something I know to be true.

For some quite inexplicably, love fades;
for others love is simply lost.
But then of course love can also be found,
even if just for the night.

And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind.
The one that almost kills its victims.
Its called unrequited love.
Of that I am an expert.

Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other.
But what about the rest of us?
What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone?

We are the victims of the one sided affair.
We are the cursed of the loved ones.
We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded.
The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space!

Yes, you are looking at one such individual.
And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years!
The absolute worst years of my life!
The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's
brought in by tears and valium.

These years that I have been in love
have been the darkest days of my life.
All because I've been cursed by being in love
with a man who does not and will not love me back.

Oh god, just the sight of him!
Heart pounding!
Throat thickening!
Absolutely can't swallow!
All the usual symptoms.

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.
How it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you.

It doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join,
or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends.
You still go to bed every night going over every detail
and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood.

How in the hell for that brief moment
you could think that you were that happy.
Sometimes, you can even convince yourself
that he'll see the light and show up at your door.

And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new.
And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again.
And little pieces of your soul will finally come back.

And all that fuzzy stuff,
those years of your life that you wasted,
that will eventually begin to fade.

-The Holiday-


For the people whom have found, lost or felt love.

F*** Friendships.

I can't believe you think I am that kind of person.
For so long u have known me, is that how you think I am?!
I'm beyond beyond shattered.

It's not that I'm not hurt enough when you decided to ignore me
for no reasons whatsoever.
You have the ability to say I pick pride over friendship.

You have to go and ask one of our friends to go settle things for you.
Somehow, you convince her that I'm too proud to go talk to you,
that I should have gone up to you first to talk to you.

Well, I'm sorry I didn't know I was suppose to go talk to you
when you were the one ignoring me in the first place.

You want to talk about pride?
You have to wait for me to tell how much you hurt me,
only then you came up to me to apologise.
You apologised and then went accusing me of replacing you.

So you think I wasn't hurt when you gave me the silent treatment
for no reason whatsoever?!
So you think I wasn't hurt when I trusted you so much
yet you accuse me of picking pride over friendship?!
So you think I wasn't hurt when you pulled that shallow stunt on messenger?!
So you think I wasn't hurt when you were the one I went to
for all my problems yet you just left me standing alone?!

I thought you were my friend.
I thought we had a silent understanding.
I thought, I thought, I guess I thought wrong. ;(


I'm sorry that you'd think I would pick pride over friends.
I'm sorry you think I should go talk to you first when you were the one who ignored me in thr first place.
I'm sorry for letting you in my circle of trust and yet you to accuse me of such things.

For the shit that I've done,
for the times I've been there for you when everyone was against you,
ignoring the bad things they say about you,
yet you think I'm that kind of person.
<Thank you for being such a good friend.


I deserve much better than this.

Animal Cruelty.

What the f**k was he thinking?
An animal dying is not art!

What's next, humans?

Please sign the petition to boycott this heartless piece of ass
whom call himself *cough* an artist .
http://www.petitiononline.com/ea6gk/petition.html

To KY,

ME, KY.

Hang on girl.
I know you can be an independent woman.
Do know we are they for you every step of the way.
Be strong.
Time heal all wounds.
I know it's tough. But heck, you'll pull thru this. One step at a time.
I just know u will. ;)

Bananas Overload,
Amanda.

Partners In Crime.

Wicked friends who put smiles on my faces everytime, anytime. <3

We'd be the loudest bunch in the room. Lol.

Even it's only been less then a year being close with you guys,
you guys manage to accept me intruding in your extremely tight bond.

May we our friendship last for the years to come.